Sunny foxy
Хочу жить вечно. Пока получается.
Hello, Dear Diary!
Помимо закрытого ото всех нытья, нужно писать и открытое всем нытье, так что...)
Where is my scholarship, motherfuckers?! I have money for the moment, but still. If I do not get it today, I will be mad. It's november the 11th. Give me some pay for all my hard work. The studying is awful, I am stupid, don't wanna talk about it.
I am going to visit the cinema this week, or next. Don't know. Also I started collecting MLP-figures. Nadya is collecting them too. Much faster then me and helping me with it. For now I have to get Flatter, Rainbow and Pinkie. Let's hope I will succeed in my quest. Today I will have patology kollokvium AGAIN. I studied to pass him 3 times already! And didn't even have the chance to try. Today is gonna be a bad day. And tomorrow. The other part of the week is tolerable.
I can't really stand the way I turned out. You know? I was born on the year of the pig. And in the January. So I am a Capricorn. And my sociotype is Dostoevsky. Plus to all this shit I am neurotic. My character is so bipolar it's not even funny. Like when someone says something not nice to me and I am like:
Pig - Heeeeeey, chiiiiil oooooouut, babe. Be eaaaaasier and don't show this dude something is wroooooong. Reeeeeeelaaaaax...
Carpicorn - Don't forget this. He said a mean thing to you. We don't just forgive him all this. No need to throw a tantrum, just remember this one day, he'll need help and SMASH HIM!
Dostoevsky - But maybe he'll need this help. What if something really bad happens. Don't be such a mean douche. No matter what others do, you should save your humanity and be good. IT IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO.
Neurotic - AAAAAA! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!! WHY ARE THEY ALL SO MEAN? WHY CAN'T I JUST GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ALL THIS? WHY I AM THE ONE TO SUFFER??! WHYYY?
It's awful when you can't just hate someone or don't give a shit about his opinion. That's why I am so stupid sometimes. The war in my head is to much to bear. Because as result: Outside I am so cool, not taking things seriously. But I remember all the bad things anyone gave me. And my moral code is not giving me a break. So I allwaya feel bad, like I am being an ass. And because all of this emotional stress, I usually throw a fit at someone, who is not even envolved in all this mess. Like mom or Angy, or Alice, or Katya. Something like that.
Thanks for listening.