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Hello, Dear Diary!
Sorry for being quiet for so long. But now I have a lot of news to tell about.
The studying is going at full width and length. Though it is not even a check-session, which by the way we will have from 3rd to 9th June, but we already are passing a lot of tests. The last week was very hard. I passed The caring (surgery part), biochemistry, physiology, history, physics (with not so wonderfull results, I must say). Tomorrow I will know about anatomy. On Tuesday I have an Economic test. On wednesday I will know my biology results and have to pass test on Higher Neural Doing. Lol. I should tie up my lexicon on summer break. Well, thursday is going be the day-off. And on Friday I need to pass PE. So, as you can see I'll have quite a lot to do. Hope I will manage it in right time.
Well, something about not studying. I watched the Suicide Shop and Paranorman. Both were extremely good. The Suicide Shop was very original piece of animation. The style is very interesting and the odea itself is brilliant. But I didn't like songs at all. Paranorman was the most thrilling animovie, I have ever seen. The idea was very close to many. But creators succesfully opened it. They didn't even have to stretch the storyline. I think Paranorman will go to my BEST-list.
Yesterday I met with my brother and guess what I've got? My book. It is Kindle 5. So small, so light, so pretty. I am soooo happy. That book should have been my present for March 8th. Yesterday was May 25th. You can't even imagine how long it is. I thought I'll never get it. I need an Inthernet now, cause I need to get a converter for books. There was a CD with Russian Classic. But I want to download Dickens, Marshall, Murakami, Moathm. Soooo many books I have to read. Today I finally read a Usual Story by Goncharov. It was very depressing, but well-written. I was so worried about the main hero. And I don't really like, that he ended like this. Still it was great.
I think I wrote to much boring information. But life it is. Sometimes it is Lazy Slow time. Session will ruin this mood very soon. Thank you for listening.


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Hello, dear diary!
I'm bored out of my mind. The history period. Though we have a really good lector, I hate the time period we're discussing. I had drawed, had played games, had read fanfiction and STILL! This one is not going to end soon. So, I decided to use this time for something productive.
I am in campus. The weather is WONDERFUL! So warm.. I think I'm melting (in a good way). Studying is getting really hard. Cause I'm relaxed. Take iiit eeeaaaaaaaasyyyyy! Tomorrow will be a looong day. I'll have two periods of biology, physiology, anatomy. And I have to clean up the lection room I am in charge of. The session is coming!!! Hide! HIDE!!! SAVE THE CHILDREN! Lol. Hope I'll pass it without major troubles.
Well, going off! See ya next time.



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Hello, Dear Diary!
Well, firstly..
Okay, now.. I just can't stand the way you are acting! Like an immature baby. Don't you think it doesn't suit you? Of course not. You are so full of yourself, you just can't think clearly. I am very ashamed, cause stupid me have to worry about you. So just a few wordsspining in my head right now: "Not F**KING funny". Hope you'll listen to me.
Well, about my nowdoing. I think I made this word myself. Don't know if it actually exists.I am pretty nice. Kinda bored, cause I have to study. But in other ways pretty nice. The weather is such a joy. I hope it will last for some more days. The sun's light is so warm. I think that I actually was sunbathing in it's glory. Still in my clothes, though.
Today I had a meeting with my family. We were talking about such interesting things! Massons, aliens, psychology, dinosaures. Lol. I have a really strange family. And now I finnaly got to know the sociotype of my aunt! He-he-he. Angy was actually right. That is a point for her. Now I am sitting and watching some random movie on Disney channel. There was a commercial about Kind Juice :D So i will stop here and get some Nestea for me!
See ya!


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Hello, dear diary!
Oh, everything is wonderful! Things FINALLY have started going my way! I am very cheerful, indeed. Do you know why? Of course! I AM GOING HOME TOMORROW. You probably can't imagine how happy I am! 4 days! Then 3 sad days. And then 3 days more! And of course after that two studying weeks and.. DEADLY SESSION. Hope, I'll survive all this menace.
Well, about my "nowdoing". I made up with Angy. We didn't talk for 8 days! Could you imagine it? Studying is getting nowhere near it's end. But it allways is coming all of sudden. I am very marry, lol. Old English. Still in process of rereading Checkmate. The day before yesterday DoaS was updated. Oh, God! I really love Pearl. She says only two capters left till the Danny will become adult. Fuck yeah! I am so intrigued. And I really want to read the moment, when he will know about and meet his true parents. And Elliot and Gregor. Ow, the poor dragons (truying not to hate Gregor). Hope, Vlad will learn this is all Spectra's doing and KILLTHISFUCKINGWHORESLUTBITCHHOOKERHATEPUREHATE!!!! Nya ^^.
I will probably write tomorrow. For now it is all. See ya!


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Hello, dear diary!
Today I want to do some whining. You have to deal with it. Sorry. Well, I am talking about guys! Why are they like that? Why are they so blind? Why are they doing such stupid and painfull things? As if it is not enough, they are so lazy and passive. Maybe they are awaiting their princesses on white lexus? Well, guys, sorry to say this to you, but... NOT GONNA HAPPEN! As if it is soooo hard to just trying to communicate with ordinary girls. I am very ashamed. They want a woman that will be beautifull, inteligent, caring, kind. With a nice personality and cooking skills. And when.. Oh, God. Just forget it. Guys, who are not looking only at girl's tits. Respect to you. You are wonderfull, even as friends.
Well, duh. Sorry about talking too much on this theme. But one person just had to refresh this in my head. Ok, about my daily life. Me and Angy are still not talking from last thursday. It is the longest fight. We've ever had. It is not helping, that she is going home any minute she can. Well, who am I to judge? I am really cool. Finally started doing some things. I have pretty rough mood swings. Probably because of my standard reason. The weather is baaad. I want sun! A lot of sun!!! I decided that this summer should be occupied with something usefull, besides my medical practise. There are my goals:
1) lose some weight
2) study astronomy
3) study japanese
Well, among that I am also planning to watch more cartoons and some serials. And, of course, read-read-read!
And, oh! I am rereading Checkmate. THIS IS STILL AS AMAZING AS IT WAS BEFORE!!! If not better! Oh, I just love Pearl84' style. I love all her works! She is amazing! Check out her stories, you'll mot regret. Though she writes only in Danny Phantom fandom, still.
Well, that is all. See you next time. Thanks for listening!


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Hello, dear diary!
It's been awhile from my last post. It is not as I don't have time. It is as I don't have energy. I am spending a lot of time just enjoying the weather though last days were not so enjoyable!) I've gained a new friend. Her name is Masha and she is gonna be a lawyer. Let's hope I spelled the word right.
Today I went to Moscow for tickets to home. MISSION COMPLETE! It is a first day when they are selling the tickets. And I ran to railway station and bought it. THIS IS EXPRESSTICKETS! And they are always selling veryveryvryvr fast. LOL. I bought the second class seat and am very proud of myself. The May holidays are coming and I can already feel the cheering mood.
Well, for now it is all! Bye!)


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Hello, dear diary!
Thanks God, my spring fever of LOVE is gone. Don't love anyone at all! Yey!
Angy took a vacation and went home, so now I am staying at our room alone. I am not lonely, quite the opposite. I am pretty happy to have some time to myself. On monday there gonna be Myology-check-up. I don't know muscles at all. Shame on me. But, I have two and a half days to study. Let's pray for me not being the lazy ass and actually STUDYING this weekend. I also have to buy some groceries (hope I didn't spell it wrong), spend some time in bathroom, doing all the girly stuff, I can imagine and maybee do some chores. And for all I have only a small weekend. Owww.
Today I am gonna visit the dinner. Don't know what they will give is today, but hope it will be something delicious!
Well, going off! See ya!)


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Hello, dear diary!
Today I want to discuss.. Erm, don't know if my monologues could be viewed like a discussion :)
First. I've been thinking a lot about my future life in Moscow and what should I do. There are not so many possibilities, but few. In the end I decided to stay in campus. Though KK wants to see me at hers and I really want it too, it seems like no, just because. I had really hard time thinking about going to another room. But still don't know. Preferably, me and Angy will just make our room more suitable for us. Like getting Internet, buying fridge, changing interier. So, there.
Second. Where the fuck is spring?! I am soooo depressed because of bad weather. Want to see blue sky, the sun, green leaves, butterflies. And what I get? Stupid snow, stupid ice, stupid clouds. Arrrrgh, unbearable.
Third. Forever alone. What else to say? And the funny thing. I think I'm in love. Ha-ha. See, told ya? It is even more unbearable, then late spring. Maybe, love is a too big word. Still there is a person, with whom I would like to heh-heh. Of course I am not jumping on his neck with lovely-dovely fluffy things. Have been thinking about this a lot. I think I had a chance with the person. Though it've never been official. But you know me. I am coward, when things are getting just a bit hotter. And of course, now, I don't have any chances. But I will have to spend with the person some quality time. Still am going to smile and the person wouldn't suspect anything. He-he-he. And what about me? I am pretty happy to have this person around. Just messing around, talking and chatting. It should have been spring and my stupid hormones. Want some love, get it out of air. Saying a bit too much.)
Fourth. With all this lack of spring, and stupid love (or deep affection) in my head, can't study anything. Don't know how I am gonna to pass my exams in two months. I am so stupid. In three weeks there are May' Holidays. But almost three weeks. Don't know if I will survive them.

All that I wanted to say, I said.
Going off.


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Hello, dear diary!
I haven't posted for long. Was pretty busy.
Things are going strange. I am not in the mood for studying, but still am getting good grades. I am not in the mood for anything, actually. I presume it is because of spring. Accurately, because of winter weather on April 5th. I want some sun and green leaves.
I became so grumpy in last days. Like I am turning into dark Dostoevsky or worse - dark Esenin. Have to calm myself. Want some time alone.
I am not sick anymore. It is very good.


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Hello, dear diary!)
I have a free half of period, so decided to use it for something productive. Writing a post, for example.
Today I am going home. It is gonna be GREAT. Home, I mean, not the travelling process. Today I'll ride on the 3rd class. Aaaaaarrgghhh! Don't want to. Big puffy men will seat all around me. And they will wide their legs, so there is no room for mine. Egoistical bastards! Poor me.
Last days were quiet stressful for me and Angy. So we were arguing a lot. Good thing we made up. But it was pretty hard to have Cold War in one room. We couldn't even spend some time alone and chill out. And I really needed it. But everything is ok now. Katya is watching. And she doesn't understand it is НЕВЕЖЛИВО. Had to tell her about translation.
Well, going off.


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Hello, dear diary!
Some more whining! It is so frustrating when you are trying to draw something. And here is the moment. You are grabbing the inspiration, your muse is in your hands and ... BANG!!$&,(7!!! Just cause someone is bored.
And then: Why are you so mean to me?!!

Thx for listening.


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Здравствуй, дорогой дневник!
Сегодня будет немного скрытой философии и немного открытых соплей. Поэтому на русском.
О, это ужасное осознание, что мир не крутится вокруг меня, в то время как МОЙ мир таки вертится. Даже не знаю, было ли это гуманным, наделять каждого человека сознанием. Вселенная - очень странная штука. Моя вселенная пытается не давать мне задумываться о вечном, хорошо верно. Может, это голос моей интроверсии? Ты в своем мире, ты в своем мире)))) Я вот огорчаюсь от понимания, что у каждого своя вселенная. И не все меня пускают к себе. Хотя кого успела впустить я? Будем откровенны ни-ко-го. Вот только приоткрыл дверцу, как либо люди сами уходят, либо обстоятельства растаскивают, либо я разочаровываюсь. Вывод: слишком медленно открываю. Или вывод: всем толком плевать на высокие отношения и чувства. А где-то там существует моя половинка. Дождусь ли? Дождется ли он? Вселенная - забавная штука. Вертится вокруг меня, но это вряд ли сможет осознать кто-то другой. А что мы имеем на пока? Пока мы имеем заплеванную душу, но не разбитое целое сердце. Целехонькое и ожидающее. Где ты, существо моей мечты? Будет печально умереть одной в квартире полной котиков.
Ok, let's go to the real part of my life. I am ill again. My throat is aching and I am talking with a funny voice. Yesterday I went to my PE-period sooo.. Don't go if you fell like you are going to be sick. Well, about something positive, only my arms are kinda numb. But legs and press are really in good shape. We were studying the anatomy of abdominal muscles, and I really have КУБИКИ! Don't know the english word!))
Now, I am going to Moscow, though don't want to. But I have to.
See ya!)))


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Hello, dear diary!
Long time no see! He-he.. Sorry about that.
So, what news? Nothing much. Been here, done that. I have been home, seen Alice. Miss my mom too much. I would like to visit her next weekend. Been at KK's. She has a rynit. Poor thing. Angy is sick too. She doesn't even go to lections. I am trying to babysit her, but it is very hard, when she is 6 years older ^^". And she doesn't really like it when I am carrying for her. Still she likes to think about me, as her daughter. Aaarrggh! I don't really like it too.
Well, the studying is flowing smoothly. I started to keep The Big Post. I am eating the milk production, though. Cause my breakfasts are primary consisting of cheese or jogurts, or milk. But I stopped eating the mayonese and chocolate. KK bugged me about doing some sport activities and I had no choice. Started doing them too. Now I have to became less puffy XD
Sneezed and oke up Angy! Brilliant me!
Have to go off) Have a really busy day tomorrow. Thanks for listening.



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Здравствуй, дорогой дневник! Запись ни о чем, поэтому и косо, поэтому и на русском.
Хочется пофилосовствовать и похипстерить, а может даже немного пованильничать.
Вот, интересно, замечают ли люди романтику в современной жизни? Выделяют ли они для себя что-то прекрасное? Вычленяют ли в сером потоке дней те маленькие чудеса. Вот я все это делаю только по настроению, почему-то не по хорошему. Встречать рассвет на вокзале, провожая глазами уходящие электропоезда; видеть вместо снега летящую на встречу золотую пыль; воспринимать каждое облако в небе, как полноценную фигурку. Этот мир настолько необычен, и в нем действительно есть все, что только можно пожелать! Жаль, что многие этого не замечают. Жаль, что я сама вспоминаю об этом лишь изредка.
Что-то накатило.)


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Hello, dear diary!
I have a little time to write, but still. I am ok. Today my head gave me an opportunity to visit PE-period. And it is a good thing! Now my legs are stiff. But I am feeling great moral satisfaction.
Also today we had Caring-for-sick-people-period. I was somehow dumbed, cause we started from surgery. But who am I to disagree. It was kinda interesting. Now I know how surgery-room should be taken care of and what should the surgery-nurse do. Don't know if this will somehow matter in my future life, but still it was interesting.
Also today I've drawn a picture of Sessil. He is looking different and I couldn't draw Lolo at all, so I had to draw Raven-shade.
And something more. Today I at least viewed the lyrics of very nice song. Here are they (part if them). Just in case I'll lost the song someday!
You don't have to be afraid
To put your dream in action
You're never gonna fade
You'll be the main attraction

Not a fantasy
Just remember me
When it turns out right

Cause you know that if you live in
Your imagination
Tomorrow you'll
Be everybody's fascination

In my victory
Just remember me
When I make it shine



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Hello, dear diary!
I am still kinda sick, don't know why. Spinniiiing-spiiinniiiiiiing. My poor head is spinning too much in last days. Blood pressure is low. And I don't really want to eat anything, too. Angy thinks it is call from my previous flue. Who knows, who knows?
Can't study anything, sleep too much. Oh, sweet sleeping time, my head doesn't spin, I see some nice dreams, I don't have to worry. Sleeping is the best. But I'm still alive, so I have to be alive: move, eat, talk, do something productive for the world. But the headache is so dull, it's unbearable!!! Aarrrgh.
Still I have to go for a lunch. Though don't want to. I hope at least I'll lose some weight. If not, I don't want to talk with you anymore, cruel world!
I decided to go home for 8th march. I miss my monmy too much. And Masha too!
Was writing from the biology lection. Oh, naughty me!)))
Bye-bye! ^.~


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Здравствуй, дорогой дневник!
Дела у меня идут не очень, зато идут!))
Ok, let's move on. I'm still sick. And though I am saying to my mom, that I am okay, I am not. Today my ears are feeling funny. Don't know the right word to describe it, sooo. But making a long story short, it feels like I am underwater, so I can't hear well. I can't study at all, cause my mind is so blobbery. Want to lie in bed and read something interesting! But crazy world is so mean to me!
This semester is so nice, still I am sad.


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Здравствуй, дорогой дневник!
Прости, что давно не писала, да и сейчас особо не шикарюсь на длинные посты. Обычно лапки не доходят, а сейчас уже поздно и боюсь ататашки получить от Энджи.
Если рассказывать все, как происходит галопом: отличноповеселиласьуккнодебильныйиммунитетвсепортит. Короче, я заболела. Не удивительно, но блин. Пичалька мне. Зато я шикарно отдохнула!) В остальном, все хорошо)
Еще раз прости за короткий пост!)


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Hello, dear diary! Guess from whom I'm writing right now? Well, actually, still from my phone! But also from KK!) tomorrow we will have a little party!
Sorry for the short post!
See ya!)

When the sun sets...